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I don’t Know What the Hell I Expected…

Published November 15, 2017 by Angela

…eventually going to bed at 3:30 pm in the afternoon will have me waking up for my day before 1 am… still not sorry though

Monday I went to bed at 3:30 pm, and basically slept all the way through until 4 am Tuesday morning. I got up periodically for the obligatory check the teenager, feed the cats, hack my lungs up, and drink water thanks to the 4 week old scratchy throat that won’t go away.

It worked so well Monday, I figured I would try it Tuesday. Now it is Wednesday and I have been up since 12:something am. Still feeling good, but things may start to get ugly this afternoon. Now the dilemma is, go to church tonight, be extremely tired and likely not very pleasant, or stay home and do my best to NOT go to bed before 8 pm. It’s all up in the air. I will have to see how my day progresses.

And this has got to be the shittiest thing about depression…not wanting to do one single thing, and not caring that you don’t.

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There Is nothing More Depressing…

Published March 8, 2014 by Angela

…then feeling like you are the only person awake in the world 😦 Now I know why I don’t mind working so many weekends.

Being a shift worker, I am no longer able to flip my sleep schedule when I don’t work and sleep at night and remain awake during the day. I have went as far as staying up for 30 hours straight; went to bed at 11 pm, only to wake up at 2am, wide awake and unable to sleep any longer.

Now, I generally don’t mind it too much because I get ahead on my homework, reading, and television shows I missed. I also manage to get the house chores done, and I even made creamsicle cupcakes last night (this morning).

But being bored, and knowing you cannot call anyone, text anyone, see anyone; it just sucks. That is all there is to it. It sucks. It is now 7:30am, one of my girls is up, and I am waiting for my sleeping pills to kick in so I can go sleep for the majority of the morning and afternoon. Only to get to do it all again tonight.

I don’t think I would be so grumpy about it today if I didn’t have an extra night of it because I took a vacation day. The up side; I am on for at least the next two weekends, and think I will take the two after that.

I absolutely cannot wait until I get my Benjamin (hairless sphynx) and have someone to keep me company 🙂

So here’s to wishing you and yours a wonderful weekend, and I promised myself I would get up with a better attitude than I am going to bed with, and make the most of the rest of my weekend. It is pretty much all planned out, so it should go a lot faster.

What are you planning for the weekend?

Day 14 Done, So Exhausted! Peanut Butter Fudge Will Pick Me Up!

Published November 17, 2013 by Angela

5 more days to go and I get a day off after working what will be 19 days. What possessed me to think I needed to do some baking yesterday is way beyond my comprehension. Luckily, at least one of the recipes turned out!

I was really thinking I was too tired to even attempt to make this as I was on day 13 straight out of 19 that I have to work before I get a day off. And even though I was probably correct, I made it anyways. And it turned out wonderful. (And we also are not going to discuss the other recipe I thought I could get made that did not turn out so well).

I don’t know why it is that whenever I am in a hurry, the whole entire world around me and everyone in it slows down. To. A. Crawl. Due to my tiredness (yep, that’s it) I failed to check and make sure I had enough powdered sugar to make a double batch before I began melting the peanut butter and butter together. Oh well, I will quick run up to the pharmacy on the corner and get a bag of powdered sugar.

Pouring rain, traffic crawling, and I get out of my car in the parking lot and am walking behind a person who is 105 years old, with a walker. That I can’t get around. Now don’t get me wrong, I absolutely adore the elderly, and think they can teach us so much and love to listen to their stories. But I was tired, and that extra-large Monster I drank didn’t seem to be working. So 10 minutes later when I get into the store and a point where I can make a quick cut to the right, I spend a ridiculous amount of time staring at the food aisle which very obviously has NO powdered sugar.

And I stare some more. Looking behind other food items for that bag of powdered sugar that I just know they have. Contemplating where is the next nearest place I can go.

So back in the car, and off to the dollar store. A girl can hope, right? Nope. They have every type of sugar and fake sugar you can imagine, except powdered sugar. So I am left with no choice, knowing my peanut butter/butter melted mixture is waiting on me.


I go a few doors down to my least favorite grocery store. Walk in, grab the sugar, check myself out, and am literally back in my car in less than 5 minutes. Hmmm, why didn’t I do that in the 1st place? That’s right, because that store is always soooo slow.


So batch #1 is peanut butter with white chocolate chips, and batch #2 is peanut butter with chunks of Mr. Goodbars mixed in for good measure. Nothing beats chocolate and peanut butter together.

Peanut Butter & Mr. Goodbar Fudge. YUM!

Peanut Butter & Mr. Goodbar Fudge. YUM!

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