Yes, I am a bit late with my resolutions, but I also find too much pressure with keeping resolutions that I set for January 1st. So I need to get into the rhythm of a normal schedule after many days off from work over the holidays, and then I can focus on what I need to fix.
And boy, do I need to fix a LOT of things… 2018 was a very
difficult year for me, on many fronts. I was certainly grateful to put it
behind me, but now my 2019 is not starting off on the strong front I was hoping
for. But that does not mean that starting today it can’t.
My anxiety has been absolutely horrible, and every day is a battle to not have a panic attack. The depression is just as bad, and with the long, cold, sunless Michigan days that we have for 4 months straight, I have no desire or motivation to do anything.
I have to change my daily routine after work. I need to get
out of the house, go to the gym, somewhere outdoors when the weather allows;
anything but sit in the house. Thinking. Thinking about what I should be doing
with my life, instead of actually doing it.
Things have to change; I fear my life depends on it. It very
well might. I will get through these first couple of hurdles, and then next up
will be talking through the other big issues affecting my life.
When I spend time in my Bible, I feel calm, peaceful, safe.
It is a wonderful place to be.
Until next time…….Blessings for you and yours, make this year your best. This is going to be Day One, no more One Day.
…and looking like I have it together on the outside. It seems to be how I have been living my life as of late. Although it works, it is certainly not ideal. While I am one to keep my business to myself (well, except for blogging about it LOL!), it can be important that others recognize I have anxiety. How do I know if they are wondering why I am being exceptionally quiet, or seem especially stressed out? I have had people ask me if I am doing okay when I am being very quiet. So they see it. Everyone sees it.
It is not that I am hiding it, or embarrassed, or ashamed; I just have always been a very private person. Talking helps. I know it helps immediately alleviate the anxiety for me, because when I am communicating, I don’t have time to focus on the anxiety.
courtesy of Meme.xyz
All four of my daughters have inherited my anxiety issues. It is a difficult thing to watch them go through, but it also makes me more determined to find good ways to manage it, so I can lead by setting a good example. I need to learn to focus on all of the things in my life I have been blessed with, and there are so very many, and stop putting all of my attention on the things that aren’t so good.
I need to manage my self-care better, and eat the right foods, and take my supplements, and get moving more! This is where I always say…I’ll start tomorrow… knowing tomorrow never gets here. I will run out of tomorrows, so it has got to be TODAY!
Easy to say, and hard to do! I absolutely take it one-day-at-a-time! Sometimes, it is an hour at a time.
What are your go-to tricks to calm your anxiety when it hits you out of the blue? Do you have something that works every single time, or is it hit-and-miss?