Yes, I am a bit late with my resolutions, but I also find too much pressure with keeping resolutions that I set for January 1st. So I need to get into the rhythm of a normal schedule after many days off from work over the holidays, and then I can focus on what I need to fix.
And boy, do I need to fix a LOT of things… 2018 was a very
difficult year for me, on many fronts. I was certainly grateful to put it
behind me, but now my 2019 is not starting off on the strong front I was hoping
for. But that does not mean that starting today it can’t.
My anxiety has been absolutely horrible, and every day is a battle to not have a panic attack. The depression is just as bad, and with the long, cold, sunless Michigan days that we have for 4 months straight, I have no desire or motivation to do anything.
I have to change my daily routine after work. I need to get
out of the house, go to the gym, somewhere outdoors when the weather allows;
anything but sit in the house. Thinking. Thinking about what I should be doing
with my life, instead of actually doing it.
Things have to change; I fear my life depends on it. It very
well might. I will get through these first couple of hurdles, and then next up
will be talking through the other big issues affecting my life.
When I spend time in my Bible, I feel calm, peaceful, safe.
It is a wonderful place to be.
Until next time…….Blessings for you and yours, make this year your best. This is going to be Day One, no more One Day.
As much as I complain about Michigan, and it is a lot, I am lucky to live less than 10 minutes from this beautiful lake. There are so many wonderful parks around us, and my girls and I spend a lot of time at them. The leaves are pretty much completely changed and already falling off the trees; this is not the long Autumn season I was hoping for. I am absolutely dreading Winter, especially after the triple ankle break in January and 11 weeks trapped in my house 😦 If you did not have the pleasure of seeing that horrible image, you can check out the post here: Well Doesn’t This Just Suck…
I am getting an opener put on my garage door today, and still have to buy a snowblower. I have not gotten my front steps fixed that I slipped down, but everyone knows to not use my front door.
So on a happier note, here are some sunset pictures. Up next; what has been going on with me and my 2 youngest daughters; the 14 year old the only one at home and pushing all my buttons 🙂
It is April 14th, the middle of April, nearly a month beyond the start of Spring, and we are under a Winter Storm Warning. It is non-stop raining right now, with temperatures dropping below freezing later this afternoon, and then the freezing rain begins. They are predicting up to an inch of ice by tomorrow 😦 Which for myself means, as soon as it starts freezing, I am not leaving the house.
I am really hoping we do not lose power, but flashlights and batteries are good to go. I thought by now I would be cleaning up the leaves out of my yard and planting new flowers and shrubs.
After 11 weeks of being in my house with a broken ankle, I am well beyond ready for some sunshine, and warm, fresh air! In the meantime, I have a blanket I need to finish crocheting, a book to finish reading, and a paint-by-number that hasn’t had any attention in a couple weeks!
Some of my favorite flower photos! Has Spring sprung for you yet?
… well, hoping my oldest runs to the library for me while she is spending the weekend with me. I wonder if there is a limit on how many books can be checked out? I’ve been continuing the Nancy Drew series and I can literally read 4 or 5 of those a day if that is all I was reading. But I do have other things to read as well 😊
As far as I know my surgery went well. The surgeon didn’t come and see me at all yesterday after I got back to my room. I have been here all alone as well so I don’t even know how long the surgery took. They had to put a metal plate and screws in as I broke 3 different ankle bones. I definitely have a long and painful road ahead of me.
My oldest daughter will be picking me up today and spending the weekend with me, so I’m a happy girl about that.
Trying to not stress about the fact that I have no idea what I am going to do Monday when she is back home and my 13 year old has school all morning and afternoon.
Definitely looking forward to getting home, seeing my cats, and being in my own bed!
If you ever try to find this place, good luck. This is year two of me trying to get there, and Google maps has not been updated since 2012. Except it calls it Gates Pond. Literally took my vehicle down some nerve-wracking two-trails.