Yes, I am a bit late with my resolutions, but I also find too much pressure with keeping resolutions that I set for January 1st. So I need to get into the rhythm of a normal schedule after many days off from work over the holidays, and then I can focus on what I need to fix.
And boy, do I need to fix a LOT of things… 2018 was a very
difficult year for me, on many fronts. I was certainly grateful to put it
behind me, but now my 2019 is not starting off on the strong front I was hoping
for. But that does not mean that starting today it can’t.
My anxiety has been absolutely horrible, and every day is a battle to not have a panic attack. The depression is just as bad, and with the long, cold, sunless Michigan days that we have for 4 months straight, I have no desire or motivation to do anything.
I have to change my daily routine after work. I need to get
out of the house, go to the gym, somewhere outdoors when the weather allows;
anything but sit in the house. Thinking. Thinking about what I should be doing
with my life, instead of actually doing it.
Things have to change; I fear my life depends on it. It very
well might. I will get through these first couple of hurdles, and then next up
will be talking through the other big issues affecting my life.
When I spend time in my Bible, I feel calm, peaceful, safe.
It is a wonderful place to be.
Until next time…….Blessings for you and yours, make this year your best. This is going to be Day One, no more One Day.
Not any of the 30 plants I just planted, of course. I fear I will be waiting years to see that; if the squirrels stop digging up my bulbs and moving them.
But after a year in my house, and I planted nothing last year because I wanted to see what was here, I am glad to see I have many perennials!
And I had to move my bird feeder from my front windows where the squirrels would just walk right up and feast. I moved it to a side living room window, which my cats finally discovered they could stalk from my bedroom window. Benjamin and Franklin; my two toddler boys I never had 🙂
It is April 14th, the middle of April, nearly a month beyond the start of Spring, and we are under a Winter Storm Warning. It is non-stop raining right now, with temperatures dropping below freezing later this afternoon, and then the freezing rain begins. They are predicting up to an inch of ice by tomorrow 😦 Which for myself means, as soon as it starts freezing, I am not leaving the house.
I am really hoping we do not lose power, but flashlights and batteries are good to go. I thought by now I would be cleaning up the leaves out of my yard and planting new flowers and shrubs.
After 11 weeks of being in my house with a broken ankle, I am well beyond ready for some sunshine, and warm, fresh air! In the meantime, I have a blanket I need to finish crocheting, a book to finish reading, and a paint-by-number that hasn’t had any attention in a couple weeks!
Some of my favorite flower photos! Has Spring sprung for you yet?
If you ever try to find this place, good luck. This is year two of me trying to get there, and Google maps has not been updated since 2012. Except it calls it Gates Pond. Literally took my vehicle down some nerve-wracking two-trails.