Lately it seems like for every step forward, I am taking 4 steps backwards. I really wish that was an exaggeration, but sadly, it isn’t. I feel like everything is spinning out of control, and I am not sure when it started, and how to stop it. I always have great intentions, and feel fantastic that I am going to get my life on track. Then by day 3, I am totally off the rails again.
I really need to ask myself “What do I really want to do with myself, and my life”…and then just do it! Could it really be a fear of change that has me stuck in this place I can’t escape? Now I’m not talking anything crazy like leaving my job I’ve had for over 20 years (and yes, I really do love me job!) or uprooting myself and my kids and moving somewhere else. But I have more than enough time in a day (especially since I only get a couple hours sleep a night) to do many other things. Finish that book I started writing? Creating a new painting? Take a class somewhere? The options, and opportunities, are endless. If only I would take them.
I have finally reached the end of the road for homeschooling, Thank Goodness! I have been living 6 months in my new home, with 3 of my girls, 3 cats, a hamster, a rabbit, and some fish. Things are really going good in almost every aspect of my life…except for my self-image, and how I am taking care of myself not taking very good care of myself.
I really am my own worst enemy, and it needs to stop, and it is going to stop today. Maybe tomorrow or the next day I will find the courage to discuss exactly how I let my life go off the rails, but for now I am completely convinced that this day, July 7, 2017, is going to be my personal Independence Day. Independence from the negative thoughts, feelings, and behaviors.
I am so sick of all the political fighting on my social media, on television, and in the news. I had to dump a few people prior to the election because of their hate-filled posts, and it is like it has started all over again.
I feel like President Trump has got to be feeling like he is taking the Titanic on her maiden voyage, and he never had a chance. Hats off to Captain Smith, by the way: he had the courtesy to go down with the ship.
I would really love to know from all the complainers what Trump has done that had a direct affect on their life? He buys and sells real estate, he gets married and divorced, he has multiple kids and has had an affair. He had a successful television show, and has been in the public eye for decades.
Does he know anything about politics? Not very much. But why does no one understand that the President has very little control over what happens in this country?
Do I feel he was our best option? No. But I will not run him in the ground before he has a chance to make things right. I voted for Obama twice, and do NOT regret it. Did my health insurance rates and coverage go in the toilet? Overnight. Would a different President have avoided that situation? Not likely.
So for the love of all things right about this country, Just Stop!
I have and am raising four very independent daughters; I do not believe Donald Trump being president is going to negatively impact their life. They would all disagree with me on this, and that is okay.
We either come together, or we all go down together. Personally, I don’t think anyone is gonna save me a space on the only floating door in the freezing ocean…..